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Do you ever think what if you could go back to a specific night of your life, how you would have changed things that happened? The way you acted or who you thought you were? What you wanted and what you believed was right for you? Maybe if you were less guarded, more open to letting yourself feel what was able to be yours, you could be in a different place now. Maybe someone else's life would be changed. Would that be better? Is that how it should have been and you made the mistake of telling yourself no? And now it is a how it should have been in the past, finally? But then I realize.. i didn't let it happen, it didn't happen and so there is no use in the what-ifs. What's done is done. You are where you are now and there's no turning back. Karmic synergy. Maybe you weren't ready for it at that time in your life, now life is telling you, have the pleasure and privilege of being where you are.